How do you interpret music? Did it make it hard for you as a cheerleader? As a massage therapist, did it help calm you or not make a difference? How has music affected your life as a child and as an adult? What’s the one kind of music that you feel is like a language to you, that speaks to you as a person?

I cannot live without music.

I grew up dancing. I learned how to adapt to different tones and pitches. I would stay up late looking up lyrics online to study them for the next dance rehearsal. I would watch music videos via closed caption to follow it better. It even helped to learn their dance moves to it. That’s how I learned the songs to help me dance better to them. Being on stage, lights are shining on you, the music is playing and in that moment it’s you moving to the soul of the music.

As a massage therapist, I’ve always enjoyed therapeutic music. It’s very relaxing and there’s no lyrics to learn from aside from voices in another language that can make you wonder if you’re actually hearing voices or if there’s a ghost in the room. (Crickets in background…)

I’m kidding. I mean, if I’m being honest, sometimes I do drive myself crazy if the house is super quiet…

I was at a ZBB concert recently. Some of the songs I did not know and some took me a while to pick up. I do know they played our wedding song. It was a loud concert. It doesn’t sound like what you hear on your usual car radio or ITunes. There’s a ton going on. They do remixes and play other songs you may have heard of but don’t know the words to. Some concerts I’ve been to will have the lyrics on their projector screen. I do rely on Justin to relay the words or to tell me what song it is they’re playing. But honestly to me, it’s really all about having the best time of your life at your favorite bands concert. I danced all night long with my husband and some of the best people I know. Sang along to songs I could understand and smiled the whole time because that’s simply music.

Same thing when I cheered at the stadium. The music isn’t the same you hear in rehearsal. You might be off the routine just a millisecond than the rest of the girls. I relied mostly on my sight to make sure I’m moving with everyone else. If it’s raining, I’m dancing without my hearing aids and no one notices it. It’s a huge place and the music is very loud, not clear, the fans are screaming, players are yelling, the loudspeaker is mumbling nonsense. It helps that you can rely on the vibration of the beat of the song and sight of other dancers.

I think music really uplifts the soul of a person. Music really is the universal language of the person. It varies for all of us, even in a hearing person.

My Journey With Stomach Issues: Part Two

If you’ve read my recent blog My Journey With Stomach Issues: Part One, I’m still blown away by this process.

I’ve never even heard of “leaky gut”. I mean, I really have but I thought it was where number two was “leaky”…right?


“Leaky Gut” is actually a condition some doctors may or may not tell you. You can go to their office and tell them the symptoms such as chronic stress, irritable bowl, mood swings, not getting enough sleep, etc.

“Here’s a Lexapro and Xanax ‘script, you seem down and really stressed. You also should be exercising, eating healthy and getting more sleep.”

But wait?….I do ALL of that. FYI: I never picked up those ‘scripts. I feel better when I eat healthy, I work out often, and I try to sleep through the night. Deep inside something STILL wasn’t right. For years I suffered and often hid my symptoms in fear of dumb people.

In my case, it’s not a full blown Leaky Gut. Symptoms still include:

  • Chronic stress
    • I have this constantly. Because of my disability. It’s quite hard to explain because it’s like trying to walk on water.
  • Mood swings
    • This often happens if I don’t eat healthy or workout.
  • Joint pain
    • I was diagnosed with Chondromalicia of my right patella.
    • I constantly have neck issues from the way I do my job. My loupes save me from most of the work but sometimes you have to adjust the position to the needs of the patients.
    • Headaches. I get them weekly. I am so sick of taking the NSIADS.
  • Fatigue
    • I had this often. And still couldn’t sleep through the night.
  • Digestive issues
    • Again, constantly. Never normal. Even on healthy eating.
  • Skin issues
    • I’ve had eczema for as long as I can remember.
    • Acne never really goes away.
  • Food sensitivity
    • I would always feel sick eating certain foods but never really knew what food was actually causing it. Was there something in my salad? Could it be that fish taco I ate?

Few weeks later, it’s all improved. And keeps improving.

  • Don’t even need that MRI for my knee
  • I sleep like a baby drunk on milk
  • I’ve eliminated a lot of the food sensitivities from my diet, including whey and casein
  • I have more energy and less brain fog.

The flush begins and to be continued… 🙂

Daily Frustrations

What are some frustrating things you deal with everyday with being hearing impaired?

In the past, I didn’t really pay attention to my daily frustrations. Sure, I had them. But not in ways like I do today.

In the last 10 years, my daily frustrations have increased as I get older and become more aware of the behavior people would have towards me. When I was younger, life was easier. Most of the frustration was little stuff such as bullying, the friends in school, the struggles in classes, etc. Growing Pains at its finest right?

But lately my frustration have stemmed from my workplace where I’m a full time Registered Dental Hygienist. I deal with 10+ different patients with multiple personalities a day.

It’s frustrating once you open your mouth and they give you the stares wondering why you speak like that.

It’s frustrating when your coworkers tell a joke and you miss it.

It’s frustrating when your office is super loud. With equipment going, patients and clinicians talking, and music in the background.

It’s frustrating when you’re working harder. Harder to pay attention to everything.

It’s frustrating the amount of time it takes for your coworkers to understand how you work as a clinician and a team.

But as a deaf/hard of hearing individual, it doesn’t mean you can stop at life because it’s so frustrating. Yes, it’s super stressful to be a dental hygienist but it doesn’t have to be. It comes with time. And that’s what’s so frustrating about it because it simply. takes. time. And more education. And don’t forget more empathy.

Having a sense of humor about it will grow your skin thicker. Maybe not your heart because some things will sting a little. And often it does.

That’s why I often try to tell people to spread kindness, not hate. Smile more and make people wonder why. Stay positive and things will come your way.

Be like a dog. Poop, kick some dirt over it and walk away like you owned it. 🙂 Seriously.